Dear Lil Kicker, nanti setelah kamu lahir, Ibu pasti bakal kangen waktu-waktu seperti ini. Saat kita menikmati waktu kita berdua, you and me. Me watching my favorite TV serials, and you dance inside my tummy. Dan kebahagiaan yang Ibu rasakan saat melihat perut Ibu bergerak saat kamu bergerak? That one of a happiness not every person in this world would feel. Dan Ibu bahagia saat ini Ibu bisa merasakannya.
Ibu ga sabar pengen ketemu, Nak. I want to touch you, hold you in my arms. Tapi ada kekhawatiran bahwa saat kamu lahir nanti, dengan semakin tumbuh besarnya kamu nanti, Ibu ga akan bisa lagi bareng2 sama kamu 24h a day, 7days a week kayak sekarang. Ga bisa selalu meyakinkan bahwa kamu akan baik2 aja seperti sekarang. Just to think about that make me feel so fragile you know..
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Maafin kecengengan Ibu ya, Nak.. Ibu saat ini sedang meyakinkan diri sendiri bahwa kekhawatiran yang saat ini Ibu rasakan, ga akan sebanding dengan kebahagiaan Ibu melihat kamu bertumbuh. Melihat gigi pertamamu tumbuh, melihat langkah pertamamu, melihatmu masuk sekolah, melihatmu menikah. Tuh kan, nulis begini aja bikin Ibumu nangis. *sob*
Don't grow up too fast ya, Nak. But if you do grow up as fast as I think you will, janji sama Ibu ya Nak, you'll grow up well and take a very good care of yourself like I do during my pregnancy. You really are my precious. Don't let others bully you, stand for what you believe.
You may fall, but don't fall too hard because maybe I can't always be there to catch your fall. And I'm afraid you'll get hurt too bad. And if one day you find your own life, and build your future while me and your Ayah are getting older, tolong sesekali menoleh ke arah kami ya, Nak. Ceritakan sama kami tentang hidupmu. Tanyakan ke kami soal keadaan kami.
Ah, terlalu jauh ya Nak, Ibu menulis begini. Mungkin Ibu terlalu khawatir. Yang penting kamu tumbuh sehat ya Nak, sampai ketemu 2-3 minggu lagi. I'm so excited yet afraid at the same time now that the time till I finally meet you for the very first time is only few days left. You know how much I love you, kid? Much enough that I'd give up my life for you..
Semarang, April 8th 2014
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